What actually happened to me? I think when I was in my mother’s womb at the time when mother and father were fighting My mom jumped off a motorcycle I think it moved a bone in my head and thus was born a madman. A madman with no fixed mood No…

Tired of stones small and big now Tired of wearing a wig now Need to learn some new trick now I want to buy something big now. Maybe an expensive gaming mouse, Maybe a very shiny band for my spouse, Maybe a big flag very red and scouse, Or maybe; a very small row-house.

Another day went, I need a drink so bad, Again the same scent, I need a drink so bad, Don’t stop me, I’m hell bent, I need a drink so bad, Sorry, I’m gonna faint, I need a drink so bad.

Thoughts dance with the speed of light Fuck everyone and fuck your judgements I think what I think and I drink when I drink Now on I am not making any amends.

I scrape my heart to see if I find even a gram worth of emotions Emptiness all around Embodiment of despair. Songs play in the background yet I don’t hear any sound thoughts go round and round in an ocean of apathy I have drowned. Feeling nauseated all the time Tell me, God, again, what is my crime? Neither did I wish for fortune nor fame Neither did any land I wish to claim. Why, oh, why, then I feel sad? Why at myself am I so mad? I cut my fingertip and drink a liter of potion I scrape my heart to see if I find even a gram worth of emotions.

Rays of the sun at 7am fresh kissing my cheeks, my bones, my flesh. Rays of the sun lighten my my dear Rosie I take her for a walk her hair shine, she pants in joy, which isn’t always easy. Rays of the sun woke up my lover her pretty smile is a sight I wanna lose never. Rays of the sun fill aroma in my face, waking her up through curtain slit I fall peacefully in her grace. Rays of the sun make the bushes dance no substance they need, at 7am they go in a trance.

I was able to calm myself down, keep overthinking at bay, at first I did drown, but finally able to swim away. Its 5am now and I feel at peace I light one up in celebration I feel so at ease.

The bee sting doesn’t bother me; I shrug her off, neither does the piercing stone on my toe, I walk whilst bleeding. I could care less about anybody’s arrogant words, you all will never feel this high that I am having. Sometime back I thought being sober is a pain; Unbeknownst, life took me to a whole new terrain. Ubiquitous rays of sun, still I somehow smile, only frown I have is I haven’t seen you in a while.

I used to sit and do nothing, I guess then I knew nothing. Now I don’t dread the next dawn bright, the silence of the night, that bluesy moonlight.